Life after death

We all die many times

growth

  • The curse of being needed, never wanted

    I grew up feeling unwanted. Apparently, I didn’t attain to some sort of standard that I was unaware of so in place of my innate value, I was taught opportunities to be useful. It shaped how I related to people. It shaped how I formed alliances and friendships. It shaped what I offered, often to… Read more

  • The thing about recovery

    ****Potential trigger warning for recovering alcoholics and substance users; my story in part, with alcohol.**** The thing about recovery is no one is coming to do it for you. No one is coming to save you. You need to find the will within yourself and in your faith (I hope you have one) to allow… Read more

  • Exploited

    I’ve been seeing something alarming trending lately. I have seen a lot of women come forward and share having been assaulted by someone they either went out on a date with or someone in general. The fact that this is even an issue is alarming, but what is even more alarming is the male response…… Read more

  • Gatekeepers

    Some of us don’t have parents, we have gatekeepers and opposition. But why? Because we were the ones that were born to destroy the illusion, to break the cycle. Because we’re dangerous with regard to the narrative. I’ve noticed within my generation and the few years surrounding my generation, there are a lot of people… Read more

  • A thing about loss

    I know a thing or ten about loss. I’ve suffered a lot of loss. A lot of should have been this way— a lot of this never should have happened. But it was that way and it did happen. It was heart breaking, feeling the pain of the losses rip though my chest, feeling like… Read more

  • It’s time

    I’ve had a lot of time to think and to observe the world around me, lately. There is shocking information pouring out at a faster rate than any human can comprehend. It’s unavoidable now. It is vitally important to know what is happening but not become inundated by it. Know enough so you can learn… Read more

  • How the heart goes cold…

    I don’t think anyone planned on hardening their heart, it just sorta happened. Trust died at some point. There was the last lie they told, the last lie you told yourself. There was the last excuse you made for them, for yourself. There were a lot of lasts. The last time you shrank in order… Read more

  • Where i once was…

    There were things that I wanted that I never had… I didn’t have them when I was growing up and I was willing to be the person that I needed to be in order to have them. But somehow, I couldn’t make it happen. My insides didn’t match what I wanted to see on the… Read more

  • The refiners fire

    What happens when you encounter fire within someone? The kind of fire that reveals your truest most authentic self. The kind of fire that isn’t safe, but it will spark within you all that you have ever desired to be. What do you want out of life? Do you desire much of the same from… Read more

  • Who told you…?

    I know all of us have our responsibilities, but does that mean that we can’t lighten up and have some fun? Can’t we take life a little less seriously? (this coming from the mother of a critically handicap child) I mean really… do we have to be so serious all the time? Since when did… Read more