Life after death

We all die many times

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  • The curse of being needed, never wanted

    I grew up feeling unwanted. Apparently, I didn’t attain to some sort of standard that I was unaware of so in place of my innate value, I was taught opportunities to be useful. It shaped how I related to people. It shaped how I formed alliances and friendships. It shaped what I offered, often to… Read more

  • The thing about recovery

    ****Potential trigger warning for recovering alcoholics and substance users; my story in part, with alcohol.**** The thing about recovery is no one is coming to do it for you. No one is coming to save you. You need to find the will within yourself and in your faith (I hope you have one) to allow… Read more

  • Exploited

    I’ve been seeing something alarming trending lately. I have seen a lot of women come forward and share having been assaulted by someone they either went out on a date with or someone in general. The fact that this is even an issue is alarming, but what is even more alarming is the male response…… Read more

  • Gatekeepers

    Some of us don’t have parents, we have gatekeepers and opposition. But why? Because we were the ones that were born to destroy the illusion, to break the cycle. Because we’re dangerous with regard to the narrative. I’ve noticed within my generation and the few years surrounding my generation, there are a lot of people… Read more

  • A thing about loss

    I know a thing or ten about loss. I’ve suffered a lot of loss. A lot of should have been this way— a lot of this never should have happened. But it was that way and it did happen. It was heart breaking, feeling the pain of the losses rip though my chest, feeling like… Read more

  • It’s time

    I’ve had a lot of time to think and to observe the world around me, lately. There is shocking information pouring out at a faster rate than any human can comprehend. It’s unavoidable now. It is vitally important to know what is happening but not become inundated by it. Know enough so you can learn… Read more

  • How the heart goes cold…

    I don’t think anyone planned on hardening their heart, it just sorta happened. Trust died at some point. There was the last lie they told, the last lie you told yourself. There was the last excuse you made for them, for yourself. There were a lot of lasts. The last time you shrank in order… Read more

  • Where i once was…

    There were things that I wanted that I never had… I didn’t have them when I was growing up and I was willing to be the person that I needed to be in order to have them. But somehow, I couldn’t make it happen. My insides didn’t match what I wanted to see on the… Read more

  • Authentic

    I can’t say this enough— be yourself, live for yourself, as yourself— not as other people want you to be. Discover who you are, what you like and how you like to live and proceed accordingly. I see so many people making decisions because those things are what their family members want or their boyfriend… Read more

  • who are you when it falls apart?

    When troubles come, what is your go to? What mode do you slide into in order to persevere or get through difficult times? What habits have you developed over the years and are they effective? Do you always come out on top, as unshaken as possible? Or are your responses and reactions to troubling times… Read more